A new chapter in my ongoing fairytale.

Today marks the last day i'll be blogging here everyone.It's been a very long road worth of blogging here, even longer if you add in my previous blogs. been blogging since 2004, all on my own, and i had written bout events, occasions, my daily life, things i was proud of, things i was ashamed to recall, lessons, experiences, love, downfalls in my love life and how i felt bout myself. but now i've come to a point where i'll be making new experiences and a fresh start in a new place with someone very dear to my heart =] we'll be talking bout our ups and downs since meeting each other and the happiness along with the sadness we've been through together. to all readers, thank you so much for your beloved support, for reading all the rubbish i spill here and for putting up with my randomness. if you happen to want to read it, let me know via msn or facebook and we'll invite you in ok?;) hehehe! lastly, this isn't really a goodbye, its just part of living life with commitments and new adventures! BYE EVERYONE! 

silentt nighttt~

its christmas eve everyone! so i would like to wish everyone celebrating (or like me- not celebrating) a merry christmas and enjoy your night! hope everything goes well and everyone has a great time attacking the turkey and everyone's laughing like mad!=D!

1 MORE DAYY X)

you know those nightmares when you're in this dark scary place, trying to call out to another person but that person can't hear you coz he/she is too far away? yeah i just had that moment in real life. -___________-""! 

went to the stadium with my mom to jog, went for two rounds and i stopped because there were dark clouds and lightning was really near. so i waited for my mom at the stairs as she was walking with her friend. they were approaching the carpark and i thought we could go home and be safe! THEY WENT BACK FOR ANOTHER ROUND!!!!!HFWOIERHFWIOHERIOW!!!!! by then i was agitated, the clouds were getting even darker and lightning was REALLY close to me. they were really far away and didn't seem like they were moving any closer and all of a sudden the rain starts pelting down hard with wind and lightning all over and my gosh i was freaked out! was trying to yell at them to hurry up and they were walking to slowly!!!! by the time they reached i was soaked through and through and the wind was really strong with lightning all over. my driving teacher doesn't allow me to drive when its raining heavily, what more i was standing outside in the pouring rain? definitely a scary experience that could have been avoided at all cost. i'm just glad there was no harm done and the worse i could have is fall sick. ugh. 

2 more dayyysssss!

went out for dimsum this morning at dynasty- not great. although dynasty and emperor's court are typically under the same company, emperor's court dimsum tastes better to me. since my phone's back cover broke, i went to the mall to repair it and it was $75!!gg.com ok! with an hour to spare i went around shopping for necessities and useless things alike. passing by an old acquaintance, i felt a bit sad because it was a good friendship that turned awkward due to certain things i did in the past. i kept thinking about it in my head how my actions changes situations into both good and bad, but i'm gearing more to the bad side right now. i felt confused, embarrassed, guilty and so forth, yet i don't know why friendship had to stop there. ah wells, let it be.. there's no need for me to try to salvage it anymore, only good memories to be remembered.
back to the phone, apparently for sony ericsson phones, they don't seem to have easily detachable covers that can be bought conveniently (unless its only my phone..) so they had to replace the entire package. till now its still pretty difficult to press the buttons, but i'm hoping it'll loosen up sooner or later. note to everyone, if you have a matted surface phone,or any surface that isnt stainless steel/metal/ washable, please don't use those rubber coverings that are also known as "phone condom"

because when you do, over a long period of time, the back of your phone will turn sticky and gunky and nasty  and no amount of wiping or scrubbing can help you. my old phone cover turned nastily sticky and i had to resort to using baby powder to reduce the stickiness. but in due time, the powder turned black and you're left with a phone that looks like it has mold growing on the back of it. and no, this isn't smelly tofu so you can't deep fry your phone and eat it thankyouverymuch. so when they changed the whole casing of my phone, i was happy to see a brand new casing minus gunks or mold and i've learnt my lesson and i shall never encase my phone in another phone condom again. for all knows, that phone condom gave my phone STDs instead of   helping to prevent it. 

argh!! Super restless can!! I feel like jumping around n going out, anywhere but in this house!

Day 3

driving today was frustrating.. my teacher brought me to the hill and the first time i did it- it wasn't bad. the second time i went up- it was SOOOO bad!! i was panicking so so badly and the car rolled all the way down the hill. people say the hardest part is balancing, the hardest part for me is remembering its the CLUTCH side that i have to release and not the pedal, also i have to stop panicking!!T.T ok, let me explain to you in a more simple and summarized way:
using a manual car, you have to go up the slope of a hill and balance yourself on the slope without rolling back. first, you have to reach the part before the curve, then you have to brake, pull up your handbrake then set the car on neutral and let go of all pedals, you SHOULD NOT fall at this stage. now you have to press the clutch all the way in to change to gear one, still with the hand brake up. while doing so, release the clutch halfway while pressing the accelerator in balance. now holding it, push the handbrake down and slowly release the clutch and you will go over. unfortunately for me, I RELEASED THE ACCELERATOR! 9UWEHTFOIWEHRIOWH!!! i  fail at this T.T came away pretty frustrated and i seriously didn't want to have anything to do with driving for the rest of the day. haiz.. i have a feeling i wont be able to get away with just 10 hours of lessons. not to mention changing gears on normal road is HORRIBLE T.T dangnabbit.. even that i can't do.. IOWHRTIOWH!! whatever, i shall get over it for now- i have tomorrow to relax.

basically, not in the mood to deal with studies right now- mom was nagging me to see my aunt for chem AND physics. -.- life just got even more depressing hasn't it? i just don't want to do this right now. sometimes i just wonder to myself, whats the point of learning all these subjects when i don't even enjoy it? its just making my life miserable and it tells me that i'm in the field where i'll be stuck doing things i DISLIKE instead of the things i like. eurgh.. this year started bad, got rough and it prolly will end badly too.

waiting for you =[

heart's missing a part of it already

been a day without you, definitely feeling the loneliness. been wondering around the house, trying to occupy myself to the fullest, yet i keep wondering if you're ok, whether you've eaten and are you having a good time. been thinking quite a lot and it scares me to think how am i gonna survive without you by my side constantly? =( as the song goes;"i'm officially missing you".